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paiseh lah not dat i dun wanna b enthusiastic, but my comp spoilt lah... e previous entry i blogged from national library! how pathetic is dat lah... pay money to tell u all wad im doing in army... :S today lucky my sis brought her laptop home so i gotta use.

so fast sia... its may! and e gers r going to uni n bcome our seniors... hu's going where har? i dint receive any letters yet leh :( mayb i hafta apply next year again!! i juz realised its been exactly 4 months since i entered army... it will b another 1 year 6 months to going back to nua-ing in bed, ponning lessons (and not get charged *erbs* or signing extra (ie do guard duty ie weekend dun go home). lets do a little bit of recap here.... (since my own blog is too dead for me to revive it haha i shall blog an entry here. *WARNING* beware of possible depression (no lah no lah) strange pinteresqueish language (dat im not bluffing) missing me so dearly (confirm stamp chop n guaranteed) ) haha


nothing is difficult in retrospect
the distance ahead is daunting
the distance covered is history
u cannot convince a person suffering that the pain will fade
a person who suffered will remember the pain only as memory permits

time flies
but only for time that has past.


4get it. if i continue half of u b committing suicide n e rest will b in tears (if u havent already) i shall juz tok. truth is, i was very much looking 4ward to getting out of school n going army. no complicated *stuff* juz b a mindless retard follow instructions, dun hafta thnk or feel or consider. very appealing. n when somethings appealing, its very much easier to b optimistic abt it n look 4ward to it. n so there goes 4 months in army.

budden when e memories of *gulps* pain anger agony of last year fades, there is less reason to use army as an escape, n when u haf more n more fantastic memories of wonderful classmates n e silly stupid funny things we did, army becomes less n less appealing, until u reach e point of I JUZ WANNA GO HOOOOOMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

but ohwell. i dun feel like this everyday. only feel like this when we get 3 hours of sleep a day n when we hafta run. i hate running. n while im not exactly a slow runner, but im in this place called commmmmmmannnndoo and in a course called leeeeaddeer course where pple dun run. they sprint. wif 30kg on their bags. for 12km. and complete it in like 15mins. nah im kidding. but e idea is there. makes me wonder y i wanted to come this course in e first place n definitelydefinitely makes me dun wanna aim for commando ocs anymore. sometimes juz seriously wonder y i dun juz go b a clerk. budden ill thnk abt e pay, n e pride n honor in being a *thumps chest twice* COMMANDO! n e fun stuff we do like airborne. den it helps a bit.

btw, very sorry to all those who will never haf e chance to b paid to do parachuting, but i muz say dat, parachuting is b-o-ringgggg.. i mean, if a person like travels around e world every week, it will bcome boring for him too rite? for me, my latest jump (which was my 2nd jump. erbs), i was like 'ok its very windy. im very high up. can see very far. things very small. yawns when am i gonna reach e ground?' yeah. hahah

oh yah ill b going overseas! (can u see my enthusiasm..) tekong 2 weeks taiwan 3 weeks. which is equivalent to i wun b around all e way till last week of june. vesak day holiday ill b in tekong so i actually thnk dat i wun b able to join u pple on sat... mayb sunday but all of u will b gone :'( so ohwell.

i wld very much wan to tell u guys abt this certain bai4 lei4 instructor dat i haf n has a name dat sounds like an extinct giant bird, but unfortunately i haf already revealed myself n e course im in (n my name is like here) so to avoid me getting charged for insubordination or smthng, tell u pple next time when i c ya :)

oh wells. i thnk i haf done enuff catharsis (hee! check dictionary lah all ye who neva listen to ms heng ;) ) for today. hopefully it can last me thru e next 5 weeks. till den! cya guys! love ya all! sms me if ure bored! cos im bored too! but i wun reply until like 3am when i finally haf free time! ciao!